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| so life has been CRAZY, which meant no updates, but i need this now. ***
I'll be stuck fixated on one star When the world is crashing down Everyone gets noticed, now and then, Unless, of course, that personage should be Invisible, inconsequential me! Breathing slowly never worked for me I cut the throat of betrayal to watch him bleed On the way home this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way. I broke all of the rules I made we're in a shroud made out of cellophane. Let's write a song that we can sing to And you can lead the choir And put the hook where it hurts most I've been convincing myself that I'm worthwhile Cause I'm worth what I'll convince myself to be  Frustration building a foundation I wrote this song to let you know that I'll be back How on earth could I be any more obvious? It never really did and now it's never gonna happen with the two of us Tell them that she's not scared She's got an army of saints armed with her prayers I should have said I loved you but I just said, "I understand." As years go crashing by, I think of all I've pondered, So many minutes squandered, So many things undone. We're always looking but we're never moving our feet That's where the problem repeats itself There’s a canvas of clouds below my feet. I’m painting it homesick because all that I love is behind me. I hope you still find me. I never thought I'd say this: The way that we play has such confrontation: And guilt by association.  Tell me: When you're alone, is that when you know That you're making the greatest mistake? Don't forget, we've got unfinished business, stories yet to unfold, tales that must be retold Now talking is just a waste of breath And living's just a waste of death Love me for who I am. And who I’ve been I’m still here waiting for you I’m lost when you’re not around I'll crave your kiss while you're gone, oh So much I'm missing that alone And I don't know how it gets better than this You take my hand and drag me head first Fearless Places, seasons, Millions of pieces, Together and all alone, Needing, Repeating, Living and bleeding, Lost in the cohesion.  I appreciate but can't accept this thank-you note Thats sealed with your last breath I won't stand aside and listen to you give up And all the roads we have to walk along are winding And all the lights that lead us there are blinding Let go, of all that we've had You know we've been down this road before For the first time, love is a habit If your heart is a drug, I'm a downhill addict Cause you just happened to push me through the fall That's the way you start it all we said that we would never fit in we were really just like them does rebellion ever make a difference It's not that you're not beautiful, you're just not beautiful to me She said, how beautiful do I have to be? So what are we looking for, When we've got all we need And what are we sleeping for, when we've got Nothing to dream for This is a dark one for you. You've made the worst of my best year.I'm talking record book good times, and then along came my worst fear You're the only one that can be my rescue (Don't let go) I won't give up, fed up, you're my only hope, woah With progress, we forget, How come this always happens to me? It's such a certain tragedy Listen sweetie You never meant that much to me
 
Liars and Cheats
I'm in a parking lot At the top of a hill Cigarettes, broken bottles Cheap ways to get my thrills
I'm in a parking lot It's a quarter to nine Surrounded by some liars and some cheats Saying their friends are mine
And I'm looking for trouble in all the right places Finding these angels have filthier faces than mine All the time
I keep company with liars and cheats I'm running with the likes of scoundrels and thieves On the other side of town, a sight you'll never see 'Cause this is where I need to be
Yeah, we swear to God He hears it all the time It's our lack of faith and foul mouths that always keep us last in line We'll never see heaven cause we'll all be left deaf, dumb and blind
And I'm looking for trouble in all the right places Finding these angels have filthier faces than mine All the time
I keep company with liars and cheats I'm running with the likes of scoundrels and thieves On the other side of town, the sight you'll never see 'Cause this is where I need to be
So much for calling you out The taste of hesitation Hasn't found my mouth since the nights I slept Consuming carcinogens Twenty-one and convinced, convinced that love doesn't exist No, it doesn't exist
I keep company with liars and cheats I'm running with the likes of scoundrels and thieves On the other side of town, the sight you'll never see 'Cause this is where I need to be
(Twenty-one and convinced) I keep company with liars and cheats (Love doesn't exist) Running with the likes of scoundrels and thieves (Twenty-one and convinced) On the other side of town, a sight you'll never see (Love doesn't exist) 'Cause this is where I need to be
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| update! ***
Sitting out dances on the wall Trying to forget everything that isn't you

If you become familiar with another in town Don't forget about the fun that we had Last time around
I use no exaggeration I’m plainly hanging by a thread

But alone is how I stay, from the womb to the grave.

Next time around, think about what you say before you run your mouth.
My darling, believe your voice can mean something Say hello to good times

Now baby just tell me to Say I like you I’ll say it anyway
 
And I will make a lovely list Of your charms So I'll never feel alone in your arms

I feel my wings have broken in your hands I feel the words unspoken inside
say goodbye to the chance that was once within your reach kiss farewell to your loss, to your lack of decency

I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive (now I only waste it dreaming of you)
 
Cause everyone I know has got a reason To say Put the past away

I'm going away, I'm going my way. finally it's my time, to be lonely enough. Unloved and I can't wait.

So give me one drink and a tune, And 20 minutes of you and the hope
And you brighten up the world with your eyes And you're so damn lovely when you're on my mind
 
Well maybe I'm a little bit slow, or just consistently inconsistent She said, "Unpredictability's my responsibility, baby."

Stay where I can see you Douse the lights!

I'm a mess, a total wreck A poor excuse without you near to keep me in check

You said you hate your last love And it's soon enough that you will will forget
And in a daze I'll run to you And I will throw my arms around you

I gotta know who you are. The suspense is killing me.

You're one-in-a-million, baby Well that's just how it goes

Me and you've got something special Perfectly dysfunctional

I'll burn a song you love right down into the ground Just to make you see what you've done to me and my friends
Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"

You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love
 
You don't have to speak because I can hear your heartbeat Fluttering like butterflies searching for a drink

Stolen everything you worked for, love was lost but better to remember,

The arch in your eyebrows can tell the truth Just imagine what your back can do

But all I want is faith. And I believe I'll move the mountains

"Tunnel"
I set out alone, Crawl through the tunnel, My eyes can hardly see the other side, No longer cold, Or feeling in trouble, I realize that I am just alive.... So let it shine,
Cause we are, the light in the tunnel, We are the living and dying, See how we are, alone in the world, We are the light in the tunnel, That's all.....
Moving so slow, towards the end of the tunnel I don't pretend I'll see the other side I trudge through the mud I push through the rubble To realize that I am just alive So let it shine
Cause we are, the light in the tunnel, We are the living and dying, See how we are, alone in the world We are the light in the tunnel
The world is not leaving us (leave us behind) But we will be leaving this world Yeah, the world is not leaving us (leave us behind) Do we believe in this world?
Cause we are, the light in the tunnel, We are the living and dying, See how we are, alone in the world We are the light in the tunnel That's all.... We are the light in the tunnel That's all.... We are the light in the tunnel That's all....
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| wow... it's been a while. ** We all just wanna do our thing Without the misery you bring. Go fuck yourselves, Leave us alone.

She's everything you want and all you hated Well dressed and overrated

You can tell by my grin That I've done this before So let the games begin
 
I'm gonna scream it to the world I'm gonna shout it out loud
I’ve got my pride and my rock band Singing words that he don’t understand

And only time will tell if violins will swell In memory of what we used to call in love

Oh I hope you’re ready for this. Heart broken. Life approaches.

I've seen sinking ships go down with more grace than you

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy.

Somewhere in the distance There's a place for me to go

I'll be your best kept secret And your biggest mistake.

And I don't think I have ever seen a soul so in despair So if you want to talk the night through Guess who will be there?

These kids are talking 'bout love We think we've all had enough

Even now when I'm alone I've always known with you I am home

I wish I could lie and just tell you I'm fine You wouldn't believe me if you tried
 
I'm better off knowing That it wouldn't last. If I seem fine it's cause I am.

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive? Do you remember that?

Call me a name, Kill me with words, Forget about me, It's what I deserve,

I miss you more than you know But I know time makes you move on

You gave me your word, but when words are lies inked to disguise I'll make my stand and break off all the ties

I’ll get over you I know I will I’ll pretend my ships not sinking And I’ll tell myself I’m over you

It's the way you do, the things you do That make me fall in love with you

Another day, another dollar, another war, another tower Went up where the homeless had their homes

Life kills rebels, death gets the rest so don't deny me your company let's just drive fast, let's drive west.

And I'm not sure what I'm looking for. But it's clear to see the purpose of my existence Is laying here in front of me.

I hope you know that every tear you cried Is a memory left from when you watch me die

Finders keepers will you keep me in mind I like secrets cause they keep me in line Old habits die hard, but I am too young to die

Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there

We made lists of things to do, And at the top of mine was to be there for you

But I hate when I heal Then I leave when I won't Cause I think that I'll find something else

What makes you tick? Dont mind my ways I could hold your interest for about a day
 
Pull me out, bring me back to life The colors that my eyes had never seen Well I am seeing now

Now you, wait for, something, to cure this, Well I'm here, under your downpour.

We'll keep our eyes closed and we won't let go and like the millions of stars we will never be alone.

Relax, stand back and watch it happen. I'll wave my goodbyes into the night and say

Where Are You Now?
I've been staying awake in the front seat for days Let the wheel turn and take me away Oh, the truth I must tell Is I'm lonely as hell Still looking for myself
It rains all day when you're not around And I'm trying my best to come clean with the clouds They follow me around I'll dance 'till the rain comes down
Stuck in the sand with the waves at my feet And I wish you'd come crash into me 'Cause where you are is where I wanna be now Where are you now?
And I know I'm not perfect but what the hell Do you think of me now? Do you think of me now?
They say that love is for the patient Gotta plan for being restless for now
Hope I'm more than a cheap trick you played on yourself But I do it so well Yeah, I'm doing so well
They follow me around I'll dance 'till the rain comes down
Stuck in the sand with the waves at my feet And I wish you'd come crash into me 'Cause where you are is where I wanna be now Where are you now?
But when I leave She walks and she talks and she stirs my feet Like she's sleeping next to me
It doesn't matter where we are It doesn't matter where we are It doesn't matter if we're states apart She loves me | | |
| new update. took too long. sorry... **

You were everything that's bad for me. Make no apologies;

I lose track of time but this you already know think out in rhyme but like sounds better when it flows and still you smile you tell me it's over, now.

Last call, lost cause, who's counting Last call, lost cause, who's counting now

Give all your lovin', give all your war I don't need much of that No, no, I'm a be alright, I'm a be alright

This is the calming before the storm this absolution is always incomplete its always bittersweet

Fashion lives alive in her dress and her eyes'll never leave her The song creates a fever baby

I've got some bibles I could sell for money, and a pair of fresh shaved legs. Won't you baby come with me?
  
You looked happier than sin Your bleeding heart is paper-thin You are so far away from where you belong

I was losing myself to somebody else But now I see I don't wanna pretend

I hope it's alright if you're still mine when we're older, Cause I won't spend another day wondering what might have been

You'll be sorry just you wait and see But lets get one thing straight You're gonna regret you left me

One last kiss we better make this one count 'Cause I can't seem to deal with the fact That I may never see you again

And something's telling me to leave, but I won't 'Cause I'm damned if I do ya Damned if I don't

This is the memory This is the curse of having Too much time to think about it

The moral this time is Girls make boys cry

There's nothing left to say I've wasted all this time on you

Oh, Oh maybe, we were made We were made for each other

You're so damn typical You're predictable, cynical I see it in your eyes

Everybody loves a winner So nobody loved me

Go on, prove it I'd love to see you try Convince me that you gave me the world

My inhibitions are beginning to let go This situation I can't help but lose control

My feet are shuffling The clouds roll in, the wind at my neck But every day's a thunderstorm I'm always walking back these days
'Cause baby I'm not alright, when you go I'm not fine please be all mine
 
My eyes are no good- blind without her, The way she moves, I never doubt her. When she talks, she somehow creeps into my, dreams.

Don't you dare run. I've been doing that for years. Look at my face, Does it smile and say "I'm okay"?

But if you fall back into my life I promise you I would never let another day just pass us by
Hush now, don't say a word - it's out in the open, And tell me how can you deal with all this weight?

You're a star but you haven't been turned on Think you can shine this way This way the whole way to the top

I've got these perfect pictures in my head of possibility It was the words you whispered then

That you had made a hole in my heart And now I've got to fool myself

Meet me at loveline, Ill see you next time Cock-sucker motherfucker is all she said... Textbook head-case, I plead incompetence

"Breakeven"
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)
You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain You took your suitcase, I took the blame. Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)
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| so i've been pretty inspired today. so i decided to update. enjoy! =] ***

You brought me to my knees. Your art, it brought me to my knees.

Maybe I would call You're a payphone away From the mess that I've become

"Life is long for those who have to wait," I said. It's the choice I had to make.

This letters written itself inside out again When rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends Hush this is where it ends

Am I just another scene From a movie that you've seen 100 times

The cure for a heart Is to move along, is to move along So move along

"You're only as tall as your heart will let you be And you're only as small as the world will make you seem"

baby baby let me in lets throw precaution to the wind

Wherever you go I’m crawling Either way you’re breaking my heart

Before I could ever let you go, gonna beg until I drive you mad And say something you could understand I'm a statue baby, knock me out

I wanna rock, I wanna show the world what I got No I wanna keep on movin' forward believe me or not
 
You're all I've got right now No one else figures out this feeling And how lonely it can get

Now perfect endings make you anxious Heavy head, a colder sweat Leaving nothing here, nothing to regret
When you love someone, and they break your heart Don’t give up on love, have faith, restart

I am not the kind that will hide, Beneath the lights and lyrical one liners

You're my summer that fades, to these cold autumn days You're my keepsake, my friend, and my fears

Does she see me? Does she know I wear my confidence like a costume?
Fading, hating, waiting for some place where I can fit in Show me, grow me, hold me, till my balance starts to set in

Next time around, think about what you say before you run your mouth.
 
Can you take me back to the person I used to be Back when you were there for me

Wake up, thought that everybody loved me Wake up, thought that everybody cared Wake up, thought that I might have the strength to carry on Wake up, turns out that I'm barely barely holding on

Let's raise a glass to all the lights they're hanging above undisturbed I'm hanging on your every word

And I’m just the ground That you happened to fall on When you lost your balance walking around in the rain
 
I want you to know that I am fine here without you But I can't bring myself to lie to you.

Let's sleep tonight on a bed of nails So that every other night doesn't seem so painful after all

Good times last forever I'll keep my heart with yours
Yeah he's a looker, but I really think it's guts that matter most.

So let's make champagne Rain down from the sky And let's toast to the night It's the time of our lives

And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
I don’t mean to be so condescending, To the depths that I’m descending. I’m not asking you for anything, for anything at all.

This is payback for all of the words That never meant enough to keep me concerned

I'm selfish as selfish comes You're giving me a run for my money Honey

And I’ve been making a list Of all your so called “big plans” And I'm really having trouble Cause it’s longer than the stretch of my attention span

Make it count when I'm the one who's selling you out 'Cause it feels like stealing hearts Calling your name from the crowd

Dedication takes a lifetime But dreams only last for a night

Assurance Closure
I'm just about ready to give up on you (One more fight) And I will be through with you A change that I would not have expected to occur And every time that I (Look at you) I'm reminded of what (We have been through) This routine has become so tiring (I'm at a loss for words)
Cause its so hard, so hard When you have lost control It was never as easy as it was before you and I lost touch This might sounds crazy (But I done know) How to let you go Its hard to keep on fighting When all you know is losing
Let me tell you how its been these 2 weeks have been a living hell Overcoming the fact that this would never be (Don't tell me it was that easy) To give up on something that you never fought for
Cause its so hard, so hard When you have lost control It was never as easy as it was before you and I lost touch This might sounds crazy (But I done know) How to let you go Its hard to keep on fighting When all you know is losing
Maybe we could (Take some time) To think about what we should do And maybe we could take some time To think about
I would have said that we could have had the best of times Have changed since you and me lost that something we had
Cause its so hard, so hard When you have lost control It was never as easy as it was before you and I lost touch This might sounds crazy (But I done know) How to let you go Its hard to keep on fighting When all you know is losing
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