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Monday, August 16, 2010

Currently
I'm Alive, I'm Dreaming
By The Ready Set
see related

Upsets and Downfalls

so life has been CRAZY, which meant no updates, but i need this now.
***




I'll be stuck fixated on one star
When the world is crashing down




Everyone gets noticed, now and then,
Unless, of course, that personage should be
Invisible, inconsequential me!

  


Breathing slowly never worked for me
I cut the throat of betrayal to watch him bleed

  


On the way home
this car hears my confessions.
I think tonight I'll take the long way.


 



I broke all of the rules I made
we're in a shroud made out of cellophane.






Let's write a song that we can sing to
And you can lead the choir
And put the hook where it hurts most





I've been convincing myself that I'm worthwhile
Cause I'm worth what I'll convince myself to be


   


Frustration building a foundation
I wrote this song to let you know that I'll be back


 


How on earth could I be any more obvious?
It never really did and now it's never gonna happen with the two of us


 


Tell them that she's not scared
She's got an army of saints armed with her prayers






I should have said I loved you but I just said,
"I understand."


        


As years go crashing by,
I think of all I've pondered,
So many minutes squandered,
So many things undone.





We're always looking but we're never moving our feet
That's where the problem repeats itself


 


There’s a canvas of clouds below my feet.
I’m painting it homesick because all that I love is behind me.
I hope you still find me.






I never thought I'd say this:
The way that we play has such confrontation:
And guilt by association.


     



Tell me:
When you're alone, is that when you know
That you're making the greatest mistake?





Don't forget, we've got unfinished business,
stories yet to unfold,
tales that must be retold



 



Now talking is just a waste of breath
And living's just a waste of death



    


Love me for who I am.
And who I’ve been


 


I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when you’re not around




I'll crave your kiss while you're gone, oh
So much I'm missing that alone




And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless





Places, seasons,
Millions of pieces,
Together and all alone,
Needing, Repeating,
Living and bleeding,
Lost in the cohesion.



 


I appreciate but can't accept this thank-you note
Thats sealed with your last breath
I won't stand aside and listen to you give up






And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding


 



Let go, of all that we've had
You know we've been down this road before



  

For the first time, love is a habit
If your heart is a drug, I'm a downhill addict



 





Cause you just happened to push me through the fall
That's the way you start it all





we said that we would never fit in
we were really just like them
does rebellion ever make a difference





It's not that you're not beautiful, you're just not beautiful to me
She said, how beautiful do I have to be?


  



So what are we looking for,
When we've got all we need
And what are we sleeping for, when we've got
Nothing to dream for



 


This is a dark one for you. You've made the worst of my best year.
I'm talking record book good times, and then along came my worst fear


        



You're the only one that can be my rescue (Don't let go)
I won't give up, fed up, you're my only hope, woah


 


With progress, we forget,
How come this always happens to me?
It's such a certain tragedy


 



Listen sweetie
You never meant that much to me


        




Liars and Cheats


I'm in a parking lot
At the top of a hill
Cigarettes, broken bottles
Cheap ways to get my thrills

I'm in a parking lot
It's a quarter to nine
Surrounded by some liars and some cheats
Saying their friends are mine

And I'm looking for trouble in all the right places
Finding these angels have filthier faces than mine
All the time

I keep company with liars and cheats
I'm running with the likes of scoundrels and thieves
On the other side of town, a sight you'll never see
'Cause this is where I need to be

Yeah, we swear to God
He hears it all the time
It's our lack of faith and foul mouths that always keep us last in line
We'll never see heaven cause we'll all be left deaf, dumb and blind

And I'm looking for trouble in all the right places
Finding these angels have filthier faces than mine
All the time

I keep company with liars and cheats
I'm running with the likes of scoundrels and thieves
On the other side of town, the sight you'll never see
'Cause this is where I need to be

So much for calling you out
The taste of hesitation
Hasn't found my mouth since the nights I slept
Consuming carcinogens
Twenty-one and convinced, convinced that love doesn't exist
No, it doesn't exist

I keep company with liars and cheats
I'm running with the likes of scoundrels and thieves
On the other side of town, the sight you'll never see
'Cause this is where I need to be

(Twenty-one and convinced)
I keep company with liars and cheats
(Love doesn't exist)
Running with the likes of scoundrels and thieves
(Twenty-one and convinced)
On the other side of town, a sight you'll never see
(Love doesn't exist)
'Cause this is where I need to be







Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Currently
Scraps [2 LP Vinyl]
By The Spill Canvas
see related

Good Graces, Bad Influences

update!
***




Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you




If you become familiar with another in town
Don't forget about the fun that we had
Last time around


 


I use no exaggeration
I’m plainly hanging by a thread


   


But alone is how I stay,
from the womb to the grave.





Next time around, think about what you say
before you run your mouth.





My darling, believe your voice can mean something
Say hello to good times


    


Now baby just tell me to
Say I like you
I’ll say it anyway


  


And I will make a lovely list
Of your charms
So I'll never feel alone in your arms





I feel my wings have broken in your hands
I feel the words unspoken inside


          

say goodbye to the chance that was once within your reach
kiss farewell to your loss, to your lack of decency


 


I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive
(now I only waste it dreaming of you)


     


Cause everyone I know has got a reason
To say
Put the past away


     


 I'm going away, I'm going my way.
finally it's my time, to be lonely enough. Unloved and I can't wait.


  


So give me one drink and a tune,
And 20 minutes of you and the hope




And you brighten up the world with your eyes
And you're so damn lovely when you're on my mind


  


Well maybe I'm a little bit slow, or just consistently inconsistent
She said, "Unpredictability's my responsibility, baby."


 





Stay where I can see you
Douse the lights!





I'm a mess, a total wreck
A poor excuse without you near to keep me in check


 



You said you hate your last love
And it's soon enough that you will will forget


        


And in a daze I'll run to you
And I will throw my arms around you






I gotta know who you are.
The suspense is killing me.




You're one-in-a-million, baby
Well that's just how it goes





Me and you've got something special
Perfectly dysfunctional

    


I'll burn a song you love right down into the ground
Just to make you see what you've done to me and my friends


  

Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"

 


You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love


   



You don't have to speak because I can hear your heartbeat
Fluttering like butterflies searching for a drink





Stolen everything you worked for,
love was lost but better to remember,





The arch in your eyebrows can tell the truth
Just imagine what your back can do





But all I want is faith.
And I believe I'll move the mountains



 



"Tunnel"

I set out alone,
Crawl through the tunnel,
My eyes can hardly see the other side,
No longer cold,
Or feeling in trouble,
I realize that I am just alive....
So let it shine,

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world,
We are the light in the tunnel,
That's all.....

Moving so slow, towards the end of the tunnel
I don't pretend I'll see the other side
I trudge through the mud
I push through the rubble
To realize that I am just alive
So let it shine

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel

The world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
But we will be leaving this world
Yeah, the world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
Do we believe in this world?

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....


Thursday, March 04, 2010

Currently
Here, Here and Here
By Meg & Dia
see related

The Last Great Star In Hollywood

wow... it's been a while.
**




We all just wanna do our thing
Without the misery you bring.
Go fuck yourselves,
Leave us alone.


 


She's everything you want and all you hated
Well dressed and overrated


  


You can tell by my grin
That I've done this before
So let the games begin

     

I'm gonna scream it to the world
I'm gonna shout it out loud






I’ve got my pride and my rock band
Singing words that he don’t understand





And only time will tell if violins will swell
In memory of what we used to call in love



Oh I hope you’re ready for this.
Heart broken. Life approaches.

   



I've seen sinking ships go down with more grace than you



 


My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.





Somewhere in the distance
There's a place for me to go





I'll be your best kept secret
And your biggest mistake.

           


And I don't think I have ever seen a soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there?






These kids are talking 'bout love
We think we've all had enough


 


Even now when I'm alone
I've always known with you
I am home

  


I wish I could lie and just tell you I'm fine
You wouldn't believe me if you tried

     


I'm better off knowing
That it wouldn't last.
If I seem fine it's cause I am.


 


Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
Do you remember that?

 


Call me a name,
Kill me with words,
Forget about me,
It's what I deserve,

     


I miss you more than you know
But I know time makes you move on

    



You gave me your word, but when words are lies inked to disguise
I'll make my stand and break off all the ties

  


I’ll get over you I know I will
I’ll pretend my ships not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you


  


It's the way you do, the things you do
That make me fall in love with you


  

Another day, another dollar, another war, another tower
Went up where the homeless had their homes

     



Life kills rebels, death gets the rest
so don't deny me your company
let's just drive fast, let's drive west.


 


And I'm not sure what I'm looking for.
But it's clear to see the purpose of my existence Is laying here in front of me.

  
 
   



I hope you know that every tear you cried
Is a memory left from when you watch me die






Finders keepers will you keep me in mind
I like secrets cause they keep me in line
Old habits die hard, but I am too young to die




Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there





We made lists of things to do,
And at the top of mine was to be there for you







But I hate when I heal
Then I leave when I won't
Cause I think that I'll find something else


 


What makes you tick?
Dont mind my ways
I could hold your interest for about a day





Pull me out, bring me back to life
The colors that my eyes had never seen
Well I am seeing now



Now you, wait for, something, to cure this,
Well I'm here, under your downpour.




We'll keep our eyes closed
and we won't let go
and like the millions of stars
we will never be alone.




Relax, stand back and watch it happen.
I'll wave my goodbyes into the night and say



 



Where Are You Now?


I've been staying awake in the front seat for days
Let the wheel turn and take me away
Oh, the truth I must tell
Is I'm lonely as hell
Still looking for myself

It rains all day when you're not around
And I'm trying my best to come clean with the clouds
They follow me around
I'll dance 'till the rain comes down

Stuck in the sand with the waves at my feet
And I wish you'd come crash into me
'Cause where you are is where I wanna be now
Where are you now?

And I know I'm not perfect but what the hell
Do you think of me now?
Do you think of me now?

They say that love is for the patient
Gotta plan for being restless for now

Hope I'm more than a cheap trick you played on yourself
But I do it so well
Yeah, I'm doing so well

They follow me around
I'll dance 'till the rain comes down

Stuck in the sand with the waves at my feet
And I wish you'd come crash into me
'Cause where you are is where I wanna be now
Where are you now?

But when I leave
She walks and she talks and she stirs my feet
Like she's sleeping next to me

It doesn't matter where we are
It doesn't matter where we are
It doesn't matter if we're states apart
She loves me


Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Currently
Kingdoms
By Broadway
see related

You Bring the Thunder, I'll Bring the Lightning

new update. took too long. sorry...
**




You were everything that's bad for me.
Make no apologies;

 


I lose track of time but this you already know
think out in rhyme but like sounds better when it flows
and still you smile you tell me it's over, now.


 


Last call, lost cause, who's counting
Last call, lost cause, who's counting now


        


Give all your lovin', give all your war
I don't need much of that
No, no, I'm a be alright, I'm a be alright





This is the calming before the storm
this absolution is always incomplete
its always bittersweet





Fashion lives alive in her dress
and her eyes'll never leave her
The song creates a fever baby


 





I've got some bibles I could sell for money, and a pair of fresh shaved legs. 
Won't you baby come with me?




You looked happier than sin
Your bleeding heart is paper-thin
You are so far away from where you belong






I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend


 



I hope it's alright if you're still mine when we're older,
Cause I won't spend another day wondering what might have been


     


You'll be sorry just you wait and see
But lets get one thing straight
You're gonna regret you left me


   



One last kiss we better make this one count
'Cause I can't seem to deal with the fact
That I may never see you again






And something's telling me to leave, but I won't
'Cause I'm damned if I do ya
Damned if I don't





This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it


   

         

The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry


  


There's nothing left to say
I've wasted all this time on you

 




Oh, Oh maybe, we were made
We were made for each other


 


You're so damn typical
You're predictable, cynical
I see it in your eyes





Everybody loves a winner
So nobody loved me





Go on, prove it
I'd love to see you try
Convince me that you gave me the world





My inhibitions are beginning to let go
This situation
I can't help but lose control





My feet are shuffling
The clouds roll in, the wind at my neck
But every day's a thunderstorm
I'm always walking back these days


 

'Cause baby I'm not alright,
 when you go I'm not fine
please be all mine


     


My eyes are no good- blind without her,
The way she moves, I never doubt her.
When she talks, she somehow creeps into my, dreams.


    

   


Don't you dare run.
I've been doing that for years.
Look at my face,
Does it smile and say "I'm okay"?




But if you fall back into my life
I promise you I would never let another day just pass us by





Hush now, don't say a word - it's out in the open,
And tell me how can you deal with all this weight?


 


You're a star but you haven't been turned on
Think you can shine this way
This way the whole way to the top





I've got these perfect pictures in my head of possibility
It was the words you whispered then


 


That you had made a hole in my heart
And now I've got to fool myself


  


Meet me at loveline, Ill see you next time
Cock-sucker motherfucker is all she said...
Textbook head-case, I plead incompetence



 




"Breakeven"

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)







Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Currently
Alter The Ending
By Dashboard Confessional
see related

Belle Of The Boulevard

so i've been pretty inspired today. so i decided to update. enjoy! =]
***

  


You brought me to my knees.
Your art, it brought me to my knees.



    


Maybe I would call
You're a payphone away
From the mess that I've become





"Life is long for those who have to wait," I said.
It's the choice I had to make.


         


This letters written itself inside out again
When rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends
Hush this is where it ends




Am I just another scene
From a movie that you've seen 100 times


     



The cure for a heart
Is to move along, is to move along
So move along





"You're only as tall as your heart will let you be 
And you're only as small as the world will make you seem"



 




baby baby let me in
lets throw precaution to the wind






Wherever you go I’m crawling
Either way you’re breaking my heart


 



Before I could ever let you go, gonna beg until I drive you mad
And say something you could understand
I'm a statue baby, knock me out





     



I wanna rock, I wanna show the world what I got
No I wanna keep on movin' forward believe me or not


     


You're all I've got right now
No one else figures out this feeling
And how lonely it can get





Now perfect endings make you anxious
Heavy head, a colder sweat
Leaving nothing here, nothing to regret




When you love someone, and they break your heart
Don’t give up on love, have faith, restart







I am not the kind that will hide,
Beneath the lights and lyrical one liners


   


You're my summer that fades, to these cold autumn days
You're my keepsake, my friend, and my fears



    


Does she see me?
Does she know I wear my confidence like a costume?


   



Fading, hating, waiting for some place where I can fit in
Show me, grow me, hold me, till my balance starts to set in




 



Next time around, think about what you say
before you run your mouth.


     


Can you take me back to the person I used to be
Back when you were there for me


  


Wake up, thought that everybody loved me
Wake up, thought that everybody cared
Wake up, thought that I might have the strength to carry on
Wake up, turns out that I'm barely barely holding on


  


Let's raise a glass to all the lights
they're hanging above undisturbed
I'm hanging on your every word


  



And I’m just the ground
That you happened to fall on
When you lost your balance walking around in the rain


  


 I want you to know that I am fine here without you
But I can't bring myself to lie to you.


 


Let's sleep tonight on a bed of nails
So that every other night doesn't seem so painful after all


 


Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours


            

Yeah he's a looker,
but I really think it's guts that matter most.

 
       


So let's make champagne
Rain down from the sky
And let's toast to the night
It's the time of our lives







And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand


 


I don’t mean to be so condescending,
To the depths that I’m descending.
I’m not asking you for anything, for anything at all.


 



This is payback for all of the words
That never meant enough to keep me concerned


       


I'm selfish as selfish comes
You're giving me a run for my money
Honey


     


And I’ve been making a list
Of all your so called “big plans”
And I'm really having trouble
Cause it’s longer than the stretch of my attention span


 


Make it count when I'm the one who's selling you out
'Cause it feels like stealing hearts
Calling your name from the crowd






Dedication takes a lifetime
But dreams only last for a night



     


Assurance Closure

I'm just about ready to give up on you
(One more fight)
And I will be through with you
A change that I would not have expected to occur
And every time that I
(Look at you)
I'm reminded of what
(We have been through)
This routine has become so tiring
(I'm at a loss for words)

Cause its so hard, so hard
When you have lost control
It was never as easy as it was before you and I lost touch
This might sounds crazy
(But I done know)
How to let you go
Its hard to keep on fighting
When all you know is losing

Let me tell you how its been these 2 weeks have been a living hell
Overcoming the fact that this would never be
(Don't tell me it was that easy)
To give up on something that you never fought for

Cause its so hard, so hard
When you have lost control
It was never as easy as it was before you and I lost touch
This might sounds crazy
(But I done know)
How to let you go
Its hard to keep on fighting
When all you know is losing

Maybe we could
(Take some time)
To think about what we should do
And maybe we could take some time
To think about

I would have said that we could have had the best of times
Have changed since you and me lost that something we had

Cause its so hard, so hard
When you have lost control
It was never as easy as it was before you and I lost touch
This might sounds crazy
(But I done know)
How to let you go
Its hard to keep on fighting
When all you know is losing


 





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